You feel like a stranger to me now. An acquaintance at best. I remember a time when you and I would text until 4am and still not run out of things to talk about. I’d be lying if I said I didn’t miss it but sometimes a person hurts you so much that it overshadows the good times. Sure I remember that time we broke all the rules at mini golf but now I can’t forget all of the times you made me want to die.
Why is it that even when I know you’ve moved on, when I know there’s no hope anymore, I still whisper your name into the night sky and hope that there’s enough magic left in the stars to bring you back to me?
“They didn’t agree on much. In fact, they didn’t agree on anything. They fought all the time and challenged each other ever day. But despite their differences, they had one important thing in common. They were crazy about each other.”
The Notebook (2004) dir. Nick Cassavetes
I have made this mistake in my life…not once but twice I have loved someone more than my heart would bear.
Your teenage years should be all about having fun. Before you know it, you’re off to college and you have to grow the fuck up. You can’t rely on your parents for everything. You’re forced to deal with your shit on your own. You’ve gotta buck up, graduate, go out into that so called ‘real world’ that everybody congratulates you on joining, and find a legitimate career. Bottom line: it’s gonna suck. Big time. So for now, don’t let it cross your mind for a second. Just have a bad ass, mother fucking time, and don’t you even consider regretting it.
I always imagine that if we’d loved each other more gently it would have worked,“ she said. “We wouldn’t have hurt each other so much that it became impossible to come back. Our love was rushed, we knew there was an expiration date to “us”. As that date got closer and closer we took all the love we had for each other and used it as a defense mechanism and it turned into hate. The damage had been done and now matter how much I miss you now, I know there is no way to go back to how things were back then, no matter how much I wish we could.
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I was so enchanted by the person I thought you were that I was blind to the person you really are.
I thought you were a winter wonderland, but when I stuck out my tongue to catch a snowflake all I could taste was soap and lies.
